The meaning of the name [FvR]Valentine

The name of [FvR]Valentine...
People always ask, what is the meaning of [FvR]Valentine?
Well, this name is actually create from a game name Sdo, or name as Xdo in new version...
At first, i just think of creating a guild name [FvR] meaning forever...
But suddenly it remind me of something that happen long ago...
It all start when i was just at the age of 12...
Before that i was actually stop talking to other since the age of 6...
I just use to write down what i want but not by talking...
At the age of 12, after end of UPSR, i go to ipoh for holiday...
( i go to ipoh every holiday cause my grandmother stay there )
As usual i go to basketball court near my house and see there all the day...
I use to see people play basketball there all the time...
But one sudden day, a girl cry in front of me...
She keep on crying and i just ignore her...
But she stay beside me keep crying and crying...
Not long later, she finally stop...
Then she ask me why i don't care about her?
Just as usual i keep on ignoring her until i finally can't stand and i start to talk...
=.= should say is a miracle...
I still wondering why i talk to her that day, maybe i really can't stand already...
Cause she keep on asking the same question...
I told her i don't like to talk and i dont know what she is doing...
Then she teach me a lot, about friends, talking, and also how to communicate with other...
The we start our relationship...
Should say she is my first girlfriend, and a special one....
Because of what she teach me, i start to care more about my friend then her...
That was her 15 birthday, my friend in ipoh ask me for help...
I go to help a friend of mine and i totally forget about her birthday...
Because of it, i break up with her...
I though she was just kidding so i just keep on saying and asking her don't make such a joke...
After that she keep on ignore me and getting away from me...
At the mid year holiday, i go back to visit her and try to be together again with her...
But then only i know she has pass away because of heart attack...
She know it all the time she won't make it, so she try to break up with me with an stupid excuses...
She always cry after breaking up with me (that is what i heard from a best friend of her)
And i always think of her as well...
I don't know she is going for the surgery...
I plan of telling her how much i really love and care about her...
But now i just can tell her at the graveyard...
The days she die was actually the day of Valentine...
That day i was getting thing hoping to make her happy agian...
But whos' know... I won't see her again...
She was always in my heart, so the name is for her...
I can't tell her or do anything for her now, but all i can say was she will always be in my heart...